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the end

i don't know what's going on.

if something bad happens i will only have myself to blame. all the signs are there but i don't know what they're pointing to.

everytime it happens i tell myself this time will be the last and i won't let it happen again.

but i'm too attached to let go because it always happens and i'm still telling myself next time.

now all i need is the strength to let go and not hold on anymore.

i don't want to be hurt but no one deserves to be treated like this.

i give him everything he wants with everything i have and it's still not enough. prehaps this is where i'm going wrong.

there's just so much pain. i've probably had worst days but at that point of time and up to now i fail to remember any.

next time i won't care. i'm not stupid but he makes me feel that way.

luckily for me i have the greatest friends who have always been there for me and will be. F2 has these massive tits so like hugging a big warm bag of pudding, in any case it's very soothing.

also i have no money but i do have a 5 foot glow in the dark skeleton...

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